So I haven’t watched this week’s episode of Glee yet, but I think I get the gist of it by now.
Mostly because my mother texted me today asking if I had watched it, along with that she had and had started crying because of the gay bullying and attempted suicide (actual suicide? I guess I’ll find out). She continued to say how much she loved me and that she wanted me to know that.
I do know that. I’ve always known that and always will. We’ve grown a little distant since my coming out, but I think this episode of Glee hit her pretty hard and somehow strengthened our bond again. I know Glee is cheesy and what not, but for once it proved to better something in my life.
So thank you Glee.
I could go into some crazy detail here and tell some drawn out story-but I won’t. In short, I’ve always somewhat known and I feel it’s the same for everyone. I only just came out, however, this past year. I started to realize that I couldn’t really deny it or run from it any longer. Within a month of “coming to terms with my sexuality” I had told my entire family and about 15 of my closest friends. I wanted to get that part over with as quick as possible and avoid any prolonged, internal conflict. This can’t be advice for everyone though-make sure you are in a stable position at home or have somewhere to go if you think you’ll be turned away by your parents.
My family is very loving indeed, I couldn’t have asked for a better one. My siblings have gone on as if it was nothing new and life is all the same. My dad will never talk about it, but not out of denial or avoidance-that’s just how he is. He loves me and always will. My mother is the only one struggling, and most likely will for some time. She’s just having trouble getting sterotypes out of her head and in all fairness it goes against everything she’s been raised to know and think. I don’t blame her. At the same time, she just needs to get over it. All that being said, I consider myself lucky. Some share the news and find themselves without a family or a home. I pray for all of them.